Consider a song — or singers singing in harmony…The two harmonies make a third sound — this sound could not be accomplished without both people singing in harmony with each other. Music is so rich and beautiful, it can teach us about the deeper things of life where words fail to describe.
This is what art can do.
My art is to convey to you some of this, in words and images, so that you can heal. I find that there are deep deep cut off parts of ourselves that weigh us down — or they freak out and provoke us to react to the smallest grievance. I know you do not wish to hurt the people you love or push them away and remain isolated. I am sure you are aware that it is not the highest path to tear yourself down. For the love of our Dear God — put in the effort, let’s learn to align ourselves with truth — align ourselves with the highest octave available to us in heaven and earth — so that we can serve others with this beautiful love we have found. We serve by singing in beautiful harmony with the truest Love.
Another way I can think of to convey what I am saying in my limited words — is to encourage you, invite you — stop blocking the Holy Spirit of God from transforming you. Love brings Love and healing to the deepest, saddest, loneliest part of you.
You do not have to understand what I am saying in those terms — I can really only use the terms that have deep meaning for me, if they do not have the deep meaning for you, then look beyond my mere words and feel what I am conveying to you in my earnestness. My passion and earnestness comes from somewhere– it cannot be feigned. You can tell at once, when you are listening to a musician or watching an actor or actress — if he or she is being sincere — if what they are conveying is coming from a truly deep sincere place at the core of their being.
I encourage you, live from this place. Regardless of how people look at you — live from this place. Quiet your mind and look deep deep beyond the surface of the busy people running to and fro around you — beyond the bills, the debts, the highs, the lows, the quarrels, the “updates” and “statuses”, beyond what everyone around you is constantly talking about:
who are you? Who are You?
What is a piano if we just take all the keys and drop them on the floor?
If we just take guitar strings and throw them all over a floor — they make no music that way.
If they are taut and in tune and plucked in a masterful way then they can make music that transposes us to a higher realm.
Look at a rainbow, sunlight reflecting on raindrops at just the right angle, in just the right way — to reveal to us, the beautiful colors that are already there but our eyes do not see them without this specific combination.
What makes a masterful artist? Consider a ballerina — practicing her craft 8 hours a day for weeks, months, and years on end…until her toes are bleeding and beyond. What makes her dance beautiful? Technique? Certainly excellent technique is breathtaking — but her life, her essence, her capacity to genuinely connect with the dance she is performing is what moves the deepest part of us.
How do we live in such a way? Perhaps we cannot live in the serious state I am speaking from — but pure joy and happiness expresses our essence as well. If we could “dwell in the secret place of the most high” — if we find some secret pocket of pure Love, if we live there — in that place or state of being “in God” we feel loved and loving. We feel protected from anything and everything that has ever harmed us — we are welcomed as we are, forgiven. From this place we can act calmly and confidently. We can dance beautifully, express our deepest longings and highest understandings of this world.
If I play my musical scales on the piano 3 hours a day for months and years in the beginning — or find beautiful pieces of music to practice and practice so that my fingers know the path they walk by muscle memory…as I listen to the notes speak to each other and respond within the written song manifested on a keyboard — I grow in my craft. If then, after all that work, you could approach me with Mozart — then I could sit at the piano and play it.
If I have never touched a keyboard, how could I play it?
If I do not contemplate: “Who am I and what is Life?” then how can I live this life with purpose? What is my purpose?
If I only knew that the notes on the paper correspond with the notes on a piano and I could mechanically play it — you will hear me “play” that piece. My playing in that way may inspire you to actually learn a craft better than I have revealed by my mechanical playing. If you watch a person who can hear the music and play the subtleties with passion and love — you could see the contrast between me and her.
This is our life.
Who are You and what is your life about? What is Life? What does it mean to have an in tune guitar within our being? What does it look like to play the notes that are most beautiful in this moment — to play with gentleness, meekness, confidence, vigor, strength, seriousness, gaiety, humility? How could we “play” in such a way that is equal to whips clearing out a temple that needs clearing out? Or play with such tenderness that the most hardened heart is inclined to welcome love?
Pain and trauma from the past can try to block our path. We think we got away and then find ourselves repeating the same pattern that was so familiar to us then. It’s horrible. I know. Some days can be really painful. It’s so important that we keep on. Others can see in our face that we have experienced deep grief and pain but we are still here. Our sincere faces inspire them to continue. We long to play in harmony with Love. Accept nothing less than the highest path.
One of my favorite passages about Jesus is the one that says: “Even if I testify about Myself…My testimony is valid, because I know where I came from and where I’m going. But you don’t know where I come from or where I’m going…” He knew who He was, what his Life was about — where he came from and where he was going.
We can get so caught up in how everyone else describes life that we don’t even think of “Life”. Remember that quote I often write on twitter — because I am reminded of it so often:
“Never tell a child,” said George MacDonald, ‘you have a soul. Teach him, you are a soul; you have a body.'”
Or remember these lyrics of Miss. Lauryn Hill’s:
Come on baby, light my fire
Everything you drop is so tired
Music is supposed to inspire
How come we ain’t getting no higher?
…Now tell me your philosophy
On exactly what an artist should be
Should they be someone with prosperity
And no concept of reality?
Now, who you know without any flaws
That lives above the spiritual laws
And does anything they feel just because
There’s always someone there who’ll applaud…
(from her song “Superstar”)
I cannot tell you everything in one blog post… you know how I try to do that if you have been here (I’m still working to re-post the 12+ posts I took down from the last two years.) — I know that as we try to run from our past pain, or escape it –without going through it and allowing love to come in and heal us– then we just repeat it! I know that much, from my own experience and in working with others as a psychologist. We do not have to keep creating unnecessary pain — but we must muster up the courage, with the help of God, to face the pain we have been so frightened to walk through.
If we never think about “Life” and the essence of who we are and why we are here — then we continuously just walk through in a kind of numbed state — unawakened to any higher purpose we may have for being here on this earth and having the experience we are experiencing.
I trust what Jesus said when he said “seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness….” it would take me about a year of blog posts to begin to describe and explore the mystery and depth of those words — but his words are not said aimlessly and without purpose. I know that much. I put them here because I do not wish to mislead anyone — ever — I pray to God to give me wisdom so that I do not teach anyone to go onto a path that will bring you more disconnection from our Creator.
Also, you are a beautiful Soul –with choices in this world. I must live and write in a way that respects that you have these choices to make.
You are not alone.
I wish you so much love on this journey.
I’ll do my best to keep writing here to remind you that you are not alone, to encourage you on this path of yours, and to honestly explore these psychological — soul-ideas so that — if there is a way to know and experience a deeper love, then we can keep learning how to do so. Jesus expressed: “I am the way”… I sincerely pray that the truest sense of those words is unfolded in our lives.
Listen to the lone piano notes…walking this path…in the midst of everything else… this song– without the lyrics was so profound to me as I heard it this evening on my way home from work — I just went to wikipedia to find out what the title means in English — and of course, it’s about longing (the story of my life)!
“The title can be translated roughly as “enough longing,” though the Portuguese word, saudade, carries with it a far more complex meaning. The word implies an intensity of heartfelt connection that is yearned for passionately, not unlike feeling withdrawal symptoms from a drug that makes one feel good. Another good analogy might be an intense homesickness. Chega, in this case, means no more, enough...”
Much love dear ones — as we encourage each other in our intense homesickness here!